A Brilliant Experiment

Just a few ramblings through the maze called my mind.

Location: Texas, United States

I'm never quite sure how to introduce myself. I'm a quiet single, woman with a lot of different ideas and interests and not enough time to pursue them all. I have two dogs and a one cat and live on my parents' property while helping them build their house. I'd love to get married and have kids, but I also don't want to marry the wrong guy. I believe in God and that Jesus is his son. I try to live with him involved in every aspect of my life, but it's easy to forget and let life's details get in the way. Because I know he is with me always, I will continue to try.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Apologies for Existing

I am, apparently, the master at offending people and not knowing it. So if you happen to be one of those people that I have offended...I'm sorry. It's frustrating. I don't mind people being angry with me, after all, that's a human emotion and I, being human, are more then capable of making mistakes. I just wish these people would tell me WHY they are angry with me. Then I could either apologize or avoid them or do whatever I needed to to make up for whatever my crime was. That doesn't mean I will always agree with them, but at least I will know it's an issue for them and I can be more careful in the future, but no. If I believed in reincarnation I would think I must have done a lot of deceiving or something to make everyone want to keep me in the dark about everything. I don't like this torture. I pray God will give me the strength to handle it in a way he would approve of because right now I am very tempted to handle it in any way other then what is right. I'm just so tired of trying to get along with other people. I have to understand them so why can't anyone else try to understand me for a change! I know I'm focused to much on myself and I'm trying to work on it, but I'm just so tired of everything. All I want to do is curl up in bed and immerse myself in a story and think about someone else's life so I don't have to think about my own!!

Monday, October 16, 2006

Viewing the Moon

While the moon is gravitationally locked to the Earth, due to a slight tidal "wobble", if one were to carefully time visits to the equator and both poles, one could eventually view nearly 56 percent of the moon's surface.

Interesting, huh? Now follow the link and see if there are anymore fasinating facts that you could learn. Alright, now I want to play Malarky...

So life is improving greatly. I still have my down in the dumps days, but most of those days are the days right before my period starts. Pleasant, huh? Those are the days that I get inexplicably depressed really, super easily, but now that I'm not having a period every other week, it's not as bad as it was. Now they're just once a month instead of 3 to 4 times a month. That was no fun at all. I've been emailing back and forth with Kyle and I feel friendly towards him, no ill wishes or anything. I'm still not interested in starting any serious relationship with him, but things are once more pleasant. I've started boxing 2 nights a week and that really helps a lot, and I'm getting in shape. I have a budget pretty much worked out for the fall and things really seem do-able. My roomie and I are looking for an off-campus apartment, and I think we've found the one we want and it's much cheaper then dorm life. God is really being good to me right now. I'm enjoying his blessings a lot.

I just wanted everyone to know that my life's not really as bad as it sounds on here all the time, I mostly just post when it's something I feel I can't really talk to anyone about. It helps me think things out and make sense of life. But really God has blessed me greatly.

Saturday, October 07, 2006


I'm sorry sometimes my mouth gets away with me. There are times when we can see something so clearly in our heads and just think that if we could express it right then the other person could at least understand what we're saying. I guess you'll never understand me, and maybe that means I won't ever understand you either. I'm sorry for my aggressive nature and I'm sorry for trying to make you understand. I'll leave you and alone now and you won't ever have to feel bothered by me again.

Thursday, August 24, 2006


Being sad makes me angry.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Summer's over.

Well, I'm excited to have internet again now that summer's over, but it was a really fun summer even without much technology or anything. But I'm a crazy person that actually enjoys the heat.

Update for everyone that doesn't actually talk to me in person and reads my blog...(I don't think there are any of those)...I am no longer engaged, but am single and plan to stay that way for a long time. He called the whole thing off on July 1 and I haven't even talked to him since then. So maybe someday I'll meet a guy that thinks I'm interesting enough to marry, but until then I'm making any guy that thinks he's interested have to do a lot of chasing. I'm not going to make things easy.

Life moves on though, and it was better that it happened before we got married then after, so that's my update, but I probably won't post much because I'm lazy. Oh well. Have a goodnight. Sleep is good.

Thursday, March 23, 2006


So my emotions have been all over the charts today, but the night ended well. Thank you, God. I have been blessed with forgiving and awesome friends and a wonderful fiance. I'm so happy. Yay.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Wrong doings.

If you tell someone to tell you when they've done wrong, don't they think that they should do the same for you?